My Johnny Cash Moment Eddie Vegas in Fender Strat 'Ville

Hi, I'm going threw a divorce from a short marriage and it is my 3rd. I'm almost 55 and have learned God is the only way, and God has all the answers. . No I am not godly all the time. None of us are. If I can help another to learn from my wrongs or rights I believe this is a God thing. This sounds so weird to most. I have learned to hate money and things. I never loved money, it never filled me up having it and yes I earned more of it.... with it. As the bibles states. In most divorces the husband and wife go back n forth playing the flesh game. Who can hurt the other the most. Fact: No one wins in a divorce. God hates divorce. People say how can you take back him or her after all they done. What part of "For Better or Worst" is now subject to change? You need another lawyer. I just had one quit me and take $5,000 from me for 10 min in court 1 time. Open your wallet let me take 5k, and close it. Open it up again so I can cash in again. I asked the lawyer why you milking me. You think lawyers don't do that? Open that wallet. People say don't do this or that to get the other more angry. They already are at that point. Anyone who knows me I talk alot, I also listen alot and talk to God and lately yelled to and at God. Always saying sorry and to my knees. I dislike waking up to pain or cause another pain. I ask Dad what to do. It came to me 5 min before I did this I call it Johnny Cash moment. When you hear and see the man in Black sing Hurt.. You get a lesson on life. So I have 40+ years friend back in NY, Stevie Rigo. Guitar player, school of hard knocks and he said something to me recently. Vegas I will always have your back but your still fighting it. When we read the bible there is much stuff in there you go what the heck. If your enemy strikes you in the cheek, turn to let him strike the other cheek. Today in this divorce where I owned 100% of the assets and money and business, and in 3-1/2 years spent 70% more in our life style. The law, lawyers, and judge and wife can have it all. I just want to free. I'll end on a little plug about lawyers. The 1st question he asks was what do I do for a living. Was really, how much money can I suck out of you because I'm good at acting. After he quit me I said to him. I sell guitars to multi millionaires and to factory workers. The price of that guitar is the same for both. Many lawyers charge accordingly to size of ones bank account.If you confront the lawyer your paying $375 a hour to account for his work. They take the money and blame it on you. The bible gave me answers on this divorce crazy'ness. Take what you want, I'll turn the other blank check over, write what you want again. I am free and will have peace. Many will think I am wrong. God showed me, He is always right..:)